Alright, I can already feel the loneliness fomenting…I’m separated from my normal diet, food options, and eating schedule! I only just reported- around 11Am this morning- and I’ve gone to my daily fill of blogs and I’m sad! I’m lucky I had the chance, but I don’t see me getting many more chances like this one! I no longer get my old fashioned oats with wonderful Almond Butter (AB), my favorite breads, random combinations of foods, and I’m definitely not able to satisfy the cravings I WILL have. This leads me to a lonely bit of depression! Eating the foods I love help me get through the day, I always tell people not to associate food with happiness. Of course I have to divulge in the thought every once in a while. Well, truth is, I am right now! I’m wallowing…in something I cannot control…humph!
Some people have said that I eat bird food, and nothing that I eat looks appetizing. So not true! I know it tastes good so there must be something in there that others like, right? Don’t get me wrong, I can get all the free veggies I want now, but it’s not the same. It’s SOOO not the same, anyone that has occupied a military post for long periods of time knows this. I think it is for this reason that military installations have BK’s, DQ’s, Subways, coffee shops, and whatever else is abroad. What better way to make a soldier feel at home than to bring “home” to them? In this case, “home” is the convenience of a fast food joint! So, even though I am somewhat jealous of the women who post their diet/meal plans/food concoctions all over the wonderful world wide web, I am going to frequent them as often, if not more often, than I have been to pretend that I am doing the same! I will have to make note of the recipes I want to try, I’m thinking this is going to be a VERY long list! Ladies, post away! I will be watching! 
Let me get back to associating happiness with food and vice versa. People often create mind games for themselves, I like to call it trickery. Our minds play games with us to see how strong we really are, we deprive ourselves of foods we love and, in turn, our bodies become an unforgivable mold of what we thought we wanted. We give up to get. It then becomes a relentless cycle of self defeat, we obsess about getting what we want and straying away from any part of that goal would mean failure. At times we make these extravagant, unrealistic goals for ourselves. Sometimes making smaller goals allows us to reach the goal we wanted all along-the extravagant one. Having an all or nothing attitude prevents us from enjoying what it is that makes us happy. We become so obsessed that we make sacrifices in our lives: going out for a drink with friends, being spontaneous, or going on a trip. I know I’ve done it, I’ve given up on events that I regret now (and may possibly have then), but then I thought it was the best for my training, workout, or lifestyle (to include dietary needs)…aka obsession! I look back now and wonder how much different my life would have been if I wasn’t so obsessed with this pound or that, a missed long work out or a training run. Perhaps my life would have been different, but I may never know. I’m making slow strides on improving my philosophy on life, diet, and personal goals. I also understand that goals take time, and I can make slow progressions toward achieving those goals, but forcing myself to accomplish all of them right now is a very hard task for anyone…even if you’re Super Woman!
This is me making myself happy, I’ve made my own choices and I’m living through them. I cannot control everything that happens in my life, schedules are not absolute, and I go through life living with and loving those who surround me! Food, diet, and exercise are important but realism is a must. We cannot live happy if we’re bound to restrictions that keep us from living happily and fully, right? I cannot stop the world revolving, so why should you?
Live in the moment, friends! Don’t get stuck in the trap! Enjoy your family and friends while you can, you never know what fate has in store!
What would be the hardest thing for you to give up if you absolutely had to?
}, I applied to grad school and got in, and now I’m just living! I must admit, my life since college has been a lot less stressful, but I want to go back…call me crazy! 
